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*What the actual hell is going on here? This poor girl becomes the target of a psycho, has to watch as he kills himself in front of her, and now he's...he's actually haunting her from beyond the grave. What did she do to deserve this? I couldn't do anything to help her when the door to her room slammed on me. She was screaming. She was screaming unlike any person I've ever heard before. I could hear things banging on the walls, but all I could think about was if this bastard was hurting her...and he was. When I finally kicked my way in, everything had stopped, but she was on the floor and bleeding from all over. Her hospital clothes were torn apart, barely hanging off of her. I would've tried to avoid looking at her, but she was just so scared and shaking and covered in her own blood, and I couldn't help myself from holding her close.
She's being moved to another room now, but not until she gets those scratches treated and a new outfit. They're not sure about what to do about
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I wake up groggily, slowly rubbing my eyes and moaning at the heaviness I feel. That stuff is freakin' awesome. I wish I could sleep this good every night. The nausea isn't as fun, but I know as soon as I eat, I'll be ok. The doctor from last night shows up and checks my vitals. I tell him about what happened last night again, and he writes it down. He assures me he'll have someone check the TV, and that he'll tell my psychiatrist about what I saw so he can help me cope with it. I thank him again and gratefully take the Pepto he's brought for me.
I feel awesome today, I swear. I feel like I got such a good night's sleep, and I'm so happy that someone listened to me and helped me feel better. I've never felt more understood. I head out to my spot by the window, glad to see that it's not too brightly sunny today. An older woman comes over to me and just starts rambling to me about her poor late husband and how she couldn't cope with his death so she tried to kill herself. By no
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I feel heavy. So heavy. My eyes hurt. I have to fight to get my eyelids open, and the lights hurt my eyes.
"It's ok, honey. Wake up slow," someone says. "I'll turn the lights off for ya."
When it's darker, I open my eyes again. I'm laying in bed, but my ankles and wrists are bound. "Wha'appen?" I slur.
I see that it's Michelle, and she's moving down to undo my bindings. "It's ok, sweetheart. We just wanted to make sure you didn't hurt yourself."
"What happened, though?" I ask.
"Unfortunately, one of the other patients got out of his room...and he had a psychotic break and slammed his head against your window," she tells me, finally getting my wrists undone.
"Did he...Did he kill himself?"
She nods her head somberly. "Yes, baby, he did. But don't worry, honey. It wasn't your fault at all."
I blink and try to remember, but all I can see is hazy memories of me screaming and red. I look over at the door and see that it's clean, not even a crack on the glass.
"They cleaned it up,
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nightmares about high school are the worst
So my Daddy suggested I find a Mommy, mostly because he and I aren't sexually compatible because, yes, I'm still a lesbian, but I do like being sexual with guys if I like them. It's just...the sight of their naked body isn't going to get me all excited. Still, Daddy wants me to find a Mommy because I might be happier with a woman rather than him. He said he'd still always be my Daddy, and that I can talk to him whenever I want. I'm always gonna be his, but he understands if I wanna end up monogamous with a Mommy. Now, I put up a personal ad on the chat forum we met, so I hope someone replies. If not, I may try being a Mommy for someone else, maybe a girl who's right around my age or younger. I would love to be a Mommy just to say all the sweet names and be important to someone. But at the same time, I'm very Little and am Little most of the time, so switching from headspaces would be a challenge for me if they want me to be a Mommy all the time.
  • Watching: Cullen and Katie on YouTube
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so my Daddy found my DA yesterday and read my post about him! ahhh, I was so embarrassed and he felt so bad because he thought it was like reading my diary, and ahhhhh! It's ok, though, I just had no idea he'd even know about my DA. Had a lot of fun with him today, we even watched a funny show and took a bath together. I had a really good day. I hope every day is this nice.
  • Reading: our texts from today
So, it's been a while since I posted a journal. Here's what's new: I'm doing much better mentally. I'm on very good meds and therapy, and I have a goal to move away from my family once I save up enough money. Get a cheap apartment close to the campus of the college I'm gonna finish at. Then it'll be Massachusetts to be an actress like I've always wanted to be!
Other than that, uhh, I joined a chat forum for people who are into Daddy Dom/Little Girl, mostly out of curiosity and wanting to belong to a community that I felt would understand that I freakin' love little girl things and being small and precious. So, within the first few days, I was getting friend requests from Daddies all over the place, and I talked with one for nearly a week, but he was a jerk and ignored me. But, right around the time I was ending it with that guy, another Daddy contacted me, and we've been talking ever since. He's now my Daddy and he calls me "baby" and his princess and he talks with me about things I like and reminds me to eat and do my best to make him proud. Now, he's fifty, which at first he thought would cause a problem, especially since he wanted this to be a sexual thing, too. But after assuring him it was no big deal to me, he became my Daddy and I became his Princess. We're trying to take things kinda slow, especially since, wow, he lives in the UK! But he's so so sweet and honest, and we Skype everyday and doesn't judge me for what I like. He's into much heavier BDSM than I am, but he understands when I don't like something. We're also into kitten play, which is new for me, but I really like it. And I love to tease him with my ears and my teething toys. I just really wanted to tell SOMEBODY about it because I feel so excited and happy and I have someone watching over me!
  • Watching: The Jungle Book -new one

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Madison Grider
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United States
a wiccan, polyamorous panromantic demisexual, alchemist, philosopher, musician, otaku, fighter, and a lover....i never stop being me...even when i die, because i know i'll be remembered in your hearts for who i was

Current Residence: Nunya, Business
Favourite genre of music: rock, folk, techno, j-pop
Favourite photographer: me!
Favourite style of art: anime/manga, photography, fictional writing, poetry
MP3 player of choice: ipod
Shell of choice: a shiny one!
Wallpaper of choice: black with purple moons!
Favourite cartoon character: Gir,Fred Fredburger,Pucca, Cheese, Pon & Zi
Personal Quote: "Music is the only lover that no one will ever get heartbroken from."
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So my Daddy suggested I find a Mommy, mostly because he and I aren't sexually compatible because, yes, I'm still a lesbian, but I do like being sexual with guys if I like them. It's just...the sight of their naked body isn't going to get me all excited. Still, Daddy wants me to find a Mommy because I might be happier with a woman rather than him. He said he'd still always be my Daddy, and that I can talk to him whenever I want. I'm always gonna be his, but he understands if I wanna end up monogamous with a Mommy. Now, I put up a personal ad on the chat forum we met, so I hope someone replies. If not, I may try being a Mommy for someone else, maybe a girl who's right around my age or younger. I would love to be a Mommy just to say all the sweet names and be important to someone. But at the same time, I'm very Little and am Little most of the time, so switching from headspaces would be a challenge for me if they want me to be a Mommy all the time.
  • Watching: Cullen and Katie on YouTube

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edzay Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2009
thanks for the fav ^^
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welcome
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Hey thanks for the fave! :dance:
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