Oh, Snap!

So much has happened since my last entry! I've finally made up my mind that I'm going to be a kindergarten teacher! Hurray! (and Teach Me -the story that I've been submitting about Olivia and Mellissa- is basically based off a running joke that me and my friends are making that I'll be flirting with single moms )
Anyway, besides that, yes, I've moved away from my mom, and I've been much happier because of that. I don't think she was specifically the reason I'm depressed, but being around her and her behaviour was certainly a factor that added to it, so keeping to a phone-based and see-each-other-every-few-days relationship has really helped keep me happy.
Men at work need to leave me alone. Seriously. I had, like, my one last test of "do I like men?" and dated a guy at work, and it was terrible. I felt so uncomfortable with him as soon as we started dating. Every time he touched me, every time he kissed me, I wanted to throw up. I broke up with him quickly. He started spreading rumours that my grandma -who also works with us- made me break up with him because she doesn't approve of him. I didn't tell him directly -though I should have, looking back on it- , but I told everyone else that I'm attracted to women and to please not go around telling him that he made me gay -because I honestly didn't see him like that; I had honestly liked him and wanted to see where we went, but there was no attraction and that made the relationship strenuous for me and that was why I broke up with him. We are actually polite to each other now. But now there is another guy at work, a very sweet guy, but I just know I need to tell him that there is never going to be anything between us. I was hoping that one of the othre guys that we work with would tell him, but apparently they think he's going to be the guy who turns me "un-gay" -the Hell?.